Happy New Year to one and all! 2017 was a wonderful year full of new friendships and slowly getting away from toxic relationships. As I age, I begin to realize how precious time is and my life can be better spent avoiding upset especially when it comes to personal relationships. Even today, on the very first day of a new year, I was unable to start off the year happy. I spent the morning after breakfast upset at something out of my control: selfish behaviour from a relative, which now because it has happened so often, I have no more patience for. Years and numerous situations where I had to be the mature one and suck it up…well, no more. Over it.
A wise friend said familial obligations only need to take you so far and if it is always one-sided or negative, keep that in 2017. I agree. Moving forward. It already feels like a weight has been lifted. Now I just need to be strong in my reserve. Despite my best intentions to move forward (as I have tried before), the religious aspect of forgiveness sets in and eventually, I do. At times, I feel I’m a big sucker and being taken advantage of. When does one become a sucker? However, I am done with my kids being a low priority and being disappointed time and time again. I am done being the “bigger person” all the time. Blood does not a family make. I know this because of my girlfriends who are just a text or phone call away. These ladies love and support me all the time and don’t expect anything back, but also know my loyalty runs deep. A give and take relationship, how novel.
Bullet journalists often have a word for the year and I think mine is CHANGE. As I plan my journal out and seeing all the special events coming up, I am excited to see my daughter’s basketball games and spending time with our friends. Is anyone else starting their new year off with a new way of thinking? Ready to do what makes YOU happy? I am. Fingers crossed.
Wishing you health and happiness for 2018. Many blessings to one and all.